RSAF Open Hse 2008

Went for my F50 JoyRide during the RSAF Open Hse 2008

Was scheduled for 0855 slot but boarded the plane at abt 10?
Cant reali remember le, all I remembered was yawning alot while waiting..
Coz I dun wake up tt early on a Sun...

I sleep till the sun shines on my arse.. =p

Walked ard for a while and went home liao coz was drizzling...

Hm.. it has never drizzle before during any RSAF OH..

Guess the weather is reali changing nowadays...

Crashed til 9pm den had my dinner... Damn tired lahz...
Ha Ha

But well, i didnt regret coz I had a ride~~
Ok, call me cheapskate or gian ben if u wan

I DUN CARE~~

A very accurate tarot reading..

Was invited to Kitty's chalet..

Hang ard and had a tarot reading done by one of her frens...

The reading was super accurate and it got me thinking...

To soften myself was the advice...

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Had dinner with Kitty and gang today..

Was introduced to new frens, frens from her AW, fun ppl~~~

Chilled at Starbucks and took the last bus home..

Nice but very tired...

Singapore Fireworks Festival 2008~~

Went to catch the fireworks with Kenneth and Jack...

Wow.. it was ppl mountain ppl sea...

+ some drizzling...

The fireworks are nice~~

Am definitely coming back next yr again coz I LOVE fireworks and simply cant get enough of them... =)

I Think God Can Explain - Splender

Its all right, Im ok
I think God can explain

I believe Im the same
I get carried away

Its alright, Im ok
I think God can explain

Im relieved, Im relaxed
I'll get over it yet

Conquer it did

I came, I saw and I conquered...

More like it conquered me... Ha Ha

Today I finally gt a taste of online gaming
Man! I can totally understand why ppl gt addicted to it~~

Coz I was too~~
Played for 8hrs straight w/o getting my ass off the seat
Bathe and came back to play again til like abt 15 mins ago oni...
Ttz like a total of 14hrs!~~

But I like the feel of finding monsters to kill, killing them and achieve wat I need.. =)

Thanks for helping me to level up
if not I probably wld still be struggling my way up

Hm... looks like we have a common interest now... =)

HAPPY

So happy today~~

Lalala~~~

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Sick...
Down with the flu and cough *ahem ahem*

Met up with Mandy (yes, I hv 2 differnt frens named Mandy) for dinner at Ichiban at AMK Hub
The queue was mad~~

Sushi for dinner
followed by some walking ard..

Gng to watch 12 Lotus tml..
Hope I wun cry coz they say the movie is very touching... =s

Thou sick but Im very happy today~~
Coz smtg made my day~~

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Went to the gym today, the feeling of sweating it all was damn good~~

Met up with Mandy today for dinner..
We haven met up with each other for quite while..
Thanks for meeting up with me babe~~
It was nice catching up with you...

As usual, login ard 10 to check my email..
Hm.. nth much.. decided to check out my facebook..
Haven been checking it out for quite some time...

And something on my profile changed...

Communication - A two way street

Spoke to Jo today, feel much better...
Im gng to heed her advice..

Read yr blog.. ..
Itz the only way I can get an update of how u are feeling...

Saw something on your blog
Asked if you wan to share abt it, "no time", "nothing le", "nothing to tell" was yr answer...
I know u reali hv no time to share abt it with me coz of the deadlines u hv to meet...

"Nothing to tell" was the one tt pricked me the most..

I realised all this while, Im the one who have been telling you how I feel..
I haven heard much abt yr feelings and itz selfish of me...
I haven heard from you on your thoughts or feelings tt you are having/experiencing/gng thru there besides knowing tt you are stressed over sch work..

I wld reali like to hear from you...
Wld u care to tell me abt it?

As communication is a two-way street...

Thank you for sending me the Doraemon pics.
Thank you for taking the effort to look for the pics admist your busy schedule...
They have made my day~~

NEVER will be able to help

Never... The word "Never" is a hurtful word..

You are stressed... Coz you cant get help from your resources and are afraid of wat others will think of you...

Im helpless... Coz I cant help you...
Never will be able to help you either...
*ouch* Im hurt...

Too sensitive is perhaps what you are gng to label me as...
Am I reali too sensitive or are u not sensitive enough?

Watever I say to you, will always be interpreted as giving you stress, even if Im just telling you my feelings...
Tt is why I dun tell u much stuff, but w/o telling u much stuff leads to us having a communication problem...
Tell me, wat shld I do?
I hv already tried my best...
And I think itz working...

Not calling you often. Checked.
Not MSNing you over trival stuff coz u are busy with sch work. Checked.
Not stressing you. Checked.
Which leaves me the option on just waiting online for you to talk to me when u are free or to say good night to me...

I know I cant help you with yr sch work...
Which leaves supporting you mentally, the only thing tt I can do...

Do you know when u are angry or stressed, the words u use can be pretty hurtful?
I hv been hurting ever since tt incident and am trying to heal..

I suggested good night calls to each other every day..
You said it will be very "siong" for you to call me, so u said tt I can always call you to say good night instead...

I hope u will remember what you hv said...
I dun wish for you to say tt Im pestering you or being irriating with the phone calls...
I dun wan us to quarrel over this in time to come...

All I wan is for us to talk to each other and keep the r/s going..
I dun mind being the proactive one coz I know u are maxed out with your studies..
Most importantly coz I love you and you are special to me...

A Phone Call...

So happy to see u online this morning when I logged in...

Happy for you tt u hv Requirement 1 of your Coding assignment...

Gt 3 missed calls from you today...

Called you back..
Happy tt u called me when you needed a break to talk to someone amidst working on all your school work...
Itz been quite some time since you called me...

Thou it was a short call but Im contended with it le, my love...

The classic romantic and unifying gesture.

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090808..
Singapore's 43rd Birthday

It also marks our 7th Mth Ann'vy..
Things hasnt been easy for us for these 7 mths esp since u left...
We hv been having conflicts, misunderstandings and cries...
But Im glad we pulled thru~

Happy 7th Mth Anniversary!~~
Thank you for being my boyfriend and loving me...

THANK YOU!~~

THANK YOU
A often forgotten but powerful word..

Thank you for choosing me...

Thank you for saying "I LOVE YOU" to me..
Itz what I hv been wanting to hear from you...

To my frens, thank you for listening to me and giving me advice
You guys hv been a good avenue for me...

I LOVE YOU

I know you cant say the three words when you are out with yr frens, just like when Im in office...

Itz just tt itz been a long time since I last heard them from you..

I hv been trying to lengthen our conversations and I hope itz working...

Feel very happy when you wld SMS me to complain abt your sch stuff to me..

Thank you for letting me into your life in Aus...

You hv made yr choice and Im glad that Im still the one..

But things between us arent the same anymore...

Communication... You said tt was missing from our r/s, I agree too...

Been making efforts to keep our conversation gng other den the usual stuff, but when u answer, "OK", "Nth lohz", "Normal"..
How do u expect me to lead on from there?
Yes, those were my usual answers to you when u asked me qns, but my answers hv now changed..

My life has been pretty screwed since..
Thought abt it for along time before I finally went to see a doc...
Referred me to a counsellor...

Longwithstanding low mood..
Having passive self harming thoughts..
Separation from you sparked off abandonment issues, impulsive outburts..

Are wat Im going thru..

I know things hasnt been easy for you, it hasnt been easy for me either...
Crying to sleep are what I hv been doin since then to now..

But Im still hanging on coz I love you..

A cover for my missing you~~

Assignments and projects hv been coming your way and I know you are very busy~~

Didnt wan to disturb you but feeling so down at the same..

Decided to go out, to take in the fresh air and get my mind off things which has been happening recently...

Went to see the NDP Preview fireworks..

Fireworks... Beautiful but short-lived...
But still one of my favourites...

I still remember the first time we saw fireworks together, it was pre CNY at Chinatown..
It was a wonderful experience and a happy moment for me~~

I was happy that you called me twice and asked me what Im doin and who Im out with...
I was waiting for you to call me a third time to ask if Im home already anot..
But you didnt.. I was disappointed.. Coz I still remember when I went out with Liu He tt time, you wld specially wake up to call me to see if Im home anot...

I know your Pre-paid is running low..
Maybe Im just too sensitive...
But to me, these are the actions that show tt u care for yr loved ones, esp when ours is a LDR..

Devotion to the one u love...

We had a long talk..

You didnt know wat to do, you were confused...

But hv u forgotten that yr main goal there is to study?

I hv nvr seen u cry like tt before..

And neither hv I, not even when the day u left..

Guess I reali broke down also..

Loneliness... is not only smtg you experience, itz also smtg I experience here..
Yes, I hv frends here but they hv their own lifes also, I cant expect them to always go out with me like you used to... Loneliness steps in..

Like.. A feeling which you cant control but a choice which you can choose to make..
Watz yr choice?

Call me old fashioned or watever~~
But I believe when you are in a r/s with your loved one, there is no room to even like someone coz your whole heart wld already hv been devoted to him..
My heart is devoted to you...

Hv u forgotten abt all those SMSes that u sent me?
Maybe u hv, but I hv not.. I reali believed it them.
Or was I too gulliable...